Wave The White Flag
I could very well give up, but I won’t. Or more likely, I can’t.
Work has been very busy that I have hardly time to think at all. I’ve been spending each day looking at Excel sheets and cleaning them up so that our system would not spit it out when we try to upload it. I have also been calling people to ask them to give us money. In a phrase, my work is a cross between a beggar and a whore; except I wear nicer clothes, smell good, and refuse sexual contact. Marketing is everything you think it is and everything you think it isn’t. I know, it’s complicated that way.
It’s mid-month and I’m broke and I’m hormonally unstable, all of which should not be mixed at all because of very violent outcomes. So yes, I am a ticking timebomb – you have been forewarned.
I don’t know how I’m getting by, seriously. The bloatedness I’m feeling gives me the illusion that I’m full and that I’ve stuffed myself silly. On the other hand, I know I haven’t been eating and that my mouth is craving for something to munch on. Full of paradoxes, me.
I have just finished Chuck Klosterman’s collection of essays titled Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs and I was right in picking it up. It’s everything I imagined it to be and more. He’s funny, witty, and insightful. He’s also very honest and has no air that most intellectuals have. If I could meet him, I’m sure we could be friends and talk shit and have loads of fun just staring into space or looking at facial hair; I don’t know, he just seems like the sort of person who can do anything and find something interesting in it. I love.
Now though, I’m burying my nose in Melissa Bank’s The Wonder Spot. It’s very melancholic and observant and I think I needed that sort of calmness with all of the things happening in my life right now. I think this book is one of those novels you could curl up in bed all day, which is exactly what I’ll be doing this weekend; also because I am broke.
And seeing my tragic cycle with money, I have also started reading Suze Orman’s The Money Book for the Young, Fabulous & Broke. I hope I get something insightful from all this. I need to get my financial independence as soon as possible, then I could buy an Acer Aspire One in peace.
