This Has To Be A Sign
Dreading Sundays (because it eventually leads up to Mondays) has got to be a sign that perhaps I hate my job. But I’ve seen people stick to theirs for about a year then do something drastic afterwards. The thing is, I don’t think I could stay that long; I’ve already entertained notions of flying off to a quiet town in Greece and working through telecommuting. Okay, I’m kidding; but maybe if I could and if I had the resources, I might just actually do it.
Still (with my feet now planted on the ground) I don’t think quitting this job will do me any good, for now. I am, however, looking at other jobs that would rejuvenate my life like, say, being a correspondent for an international music magazine or joining a pool of other writers and committing to ten articles in three months or coming up with a pop culture column. All this, of course, done online and done on weekends.
It’s true that my boss has done nothing to inspire me to get better in my work. In fact, I believe this is her ploy: to not let anyone learn anything and therefore, securing her position in the company. But the thing is, we all know (or I know) that though she might have some bouts of genius here and there (and trust me, it doesn’t happen often), her management skills are absolutely terrible. Like for instance, admitting to being scattered-brain is not an impression that you’d want to give others, especially to your subordinates and definitely to your boss. Well, maybe she thinks it’s okay to be like that. I guess honesty is her best policy. Sometimes though, she’s really hard to communicate with what with her persistence to hear no one else’s voice but her own and because she gets confused too easily, and here we are, letting her handle a big chunk of the company’s operations.
I’ve heard that the company has already been sold to someone. It was announced during one of the weekly staff meetings months before I came in. The prospects of being retrenched could be bigger knowing that I’ve only been with the company for slightly over two months; not making me an asset or indispensable, for that matter. So maybe my reluctance to go full steam ahead on this job is because of all these factors coming in. Besides, I did bring out the topic of going into online marketing to our IT manager and when he told the big boss about it, he was met with only an, “I’ll think about it”. Well, how long will they sit on this issue? Clearly they have some reworking to do, especially on their strategy. Sigh, if only they’d let me…
