Last Straw
After everything that’s happened to me, all it takes is a little thing to push me over the edge. That little thing came in the form of my electric stand fan that suddenly stopped working last night. I know it’s just a fan but with all the stress I’ve been getting lately, I believe that this is the last thing I want happening to me. I am in such a critical condition right now that even the littlest of things bother me. It’s like when you thought that your day couldn’t get any worse but then it does? Yeah, that’s what it feels like right now.
I know I’ve been a wee bit emotional for the past four weeks, but can you really blame me? I lost my job, I’m broke, I have rent and bills to pay, and my social calendar is shrinking. Everything seems to be going downhill and I don’t see it slowing down. I have way too many life experiences to learn from during the five months I’ve been in Singapore. I certainly hope that these mistakes eventually lead to future success. I really really really hope something good is coming my way.
*cross fingers*
P.S. Dad told me to meditate on positive thoughts and energies. I should probably focus on that. One day at a time, they say. Good god, I feel like I’m in an AA meeting. Hello, I’m Niki and I’m unemployed with a spending problem.
